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Have you ever thought of quitting something when you were almost at the end? Have you ever cried so hard inside, but pretended you were okay?  Have you ever felt like giving up and wanted to run away, but you just can't? Have you ever felt like giving up, but you know you'd regret it? I had.  This event of my life deserves a post here. IMU has so many professional examinations that make me lost count. What I knew, on the 6th of August (Tuesday), I had my final professional examination, the last exam as a medical student in IMU. IMU has a different system from other universities. I had OBA, EMQ and 16-OSCE stations in Semester 9, and I thought that was already the toughest exam. The exam in our final semester (semester 10) consisted of a long case and viva on our 10 portfolios. It was easier than semester 9, but definitely not as easy as "Don't worry, you don't have to study also can pass." But what I can say, Semester 10 is one of the bes...

I couldn't read his face. Did he feel surprised? Or not? It could be either way. But I just couldn't tell it. Then I decided to ask him directly.  Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Yesterday was Sobri's 24th birthday and after so many years of LDR and facetime wishes, I wanted to make this year a different one for him ceh konon. He's working in JB and for the current posting, he has to work even on the weekends. I planned to make a surprise, and was it a success? Or a failure? Jeng jeng jeng.  On the 10th of April, I contacted one of his friends who works and stays in JB, Ily. She's one of his group of friends who he often hangs out together. I consider myself and Ily as acquaintances as we follow each other on Instagram, know each other presence, but never met in person. Ily was willing to help me, and another great thing was another friend of Sobri, Feeda agreed to join as well weee the more the merrier.  I already booked a bus tick...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Credits to Ronald Cooley (taken from this website ). You know when you first meet a stranger and it's all so awkward in the beginning? You feel the gap and you don't know whether you should talk or just keep quiet because you wanna beat the silence and awkwardness, but you're afraid you might make s/he feels annoyed. That was what I thought a few days ago. I almost canceled my weekend plan because of the thought and I'm really grateful I did not. I have to admit that I'm not comfortable to be in a new place or situation alone. It all started when my Maklang (aunt) could not make it for the Twins Of Faith.  She offered me a Twins of Faith (TOF) ticket for free. TOF is an annual Islamic conference, where they will call a few sheikh(s), ustadh(s) and imam(s) to deliver Islamic talks based on a theme, and this year it is about Qalb, which means heart.  True they say that if you were to do a good thing, Allah ...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. Meet Ummi Umairah binti Kahar I can't remember when was the last time I met this girl. She's my best friend since standard 1, although back in primary school, there were times that we were not friends and we created our own gang where we persuaded our classmates not to be friends with the other party haha. But still, she was among those who stay in my life the longest, congrats and thanks, you're the chosen one haha. The initial plan of our hang out yesterday was to go to Mahkota Parade, have a lunch at Boat Noodles and then watch Bad Genius at Lotus 5 Stars Cinema with Ica (sister) and Haniza (cousin) as well. Unfortunately, Haniza couldn't join, so Ica decided to let Ummi and I spend time together. Too lazy to drive until Mahkota Parade, plus we thought of trying the 'Malaysian boat noodles', we chose to go to Aeon instead because Aeon has a cinema too. The 'Malaysian boat noodles' or its real...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  One of the most depressing books I've ever read but I was inspired by its title. After 17 years of studying, from Tadika Seri Berjaya, to SK Bukit Beruang, to Seri Puteri, to INTI and to now, IMU, one thing I know about myself -- I'm not gifted. I always thought I had to work harder than everyone else, but little did I know, they were studying when I was watching a movie, revising when I was procrastinating. Fifth semester of being a medical student had taught me a lot; about life, family, friends, medicine and about myself the most.  Final exam of semester 5 in IMU is one of the scariest examinations as it determines whether you can go to clinical school or not. It became scarier when the assessment changed, from only OSCE to both theory papers and OSCE. I never told anyone about this, so lets just keep this secret between us okay.  If people asked me to come out with one word to describe the whole semester, ...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. My friends and I went to MidValley after the OSCE debriefing session last Thursday. We didn't have any specific plan; just bought some stuff for our upcoming trip and spent time together before going back to our hometown. Around 6, it was time to go back. We had to take the KTM first from Midvalley and then changed to LRT in Bandar Tasik Selatan. By the time we wanted to go to the train, many people went up from downstairs, which means they were just arriving.  We ran as fast as we could because you know how tiring it would be to wait for 40 minutes before the next train arrives. We were quite relieved when we saw a long queue waiting to board the train. The train was really packed with people coming back from work and whatnots. Though the long line could buy us some time, but the problem was.. the 3 of us + 1 cabin-sized luggage (I just bought it) were not gonna fit in there. Fatin and Sanaa were in front of me. They ran from on...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  Creds to http://thomasfitzgerald.photoshelter.com/ I just finished my one-month posting in Batu Pahat. I feel a bit relieved as staying there can be super tiring sometimes, but the sadness I felt the moment I saw 'Malacca border' was undeniable. Early mornings, long days, late on-calls and whatnots had strengthened the bond between us, making us comfortable with each other, like a family. Academically, we learned a lot about Medicine in a real setting, but not only that, we learned about each other as well. Though I can't say that one month is enough to really know someone, but it's enough to get rid of the awkwardness when eyes meet eyes. No need to pretend looking at the phone anymore haha. My group was the last group that stayed in Batu Pahat as we had a bedside teaching (bst) session on Thursday and other 3 groups had gone back on Wednesday. So only the 8 of us left on Wednesday's night; 4 guys in a house...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. There's a lot of things happening right now, but I'm going to update about my batch reunion first, which was held 2 weeks ago. Just to clarify for those who do not know. Eld is actually the short form for our batch (Seri Puteri 0711) name, Eldaterra. My friends, Dala, Ayef and a few more were the masterminds of this memorable event. The most exciting part was... *drum roll* I got the chance to meet my best friends, all at once! Except for Zahraa, who's in Jordan right now. But, she's gonna come back for good soooonnnn as she'll graduate a few months more. No reason not to meet after this hehe.  The night before the reunion day, 5 of my best friends came to my (2nd) house in Vista Komanwel and stayed here for 2 nights! We had so much fun, just like the old times during high school when we gathered in the dorm and had a chit chat until one by one fell asleep. It was just about the same. The same us, the same person, t...