India Trip Day 1 Part 2 (Delhi) - Scary & Scared

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From the previous entry; India Trip D1P1 (Delhi) - Airport & Honk

"We were smiling and chit chatting happily in the car without knowing what we had to face later. The first day in India and I already thought of going back home."

Delhi Junction / Old Delhi Railway Station

Here's the photo of Old Delhi Railway Station in the morning.

We bought our train tickets a few weeks before going to India. The station code *DLI stands for the Delhi Junction Railway Station, which is also known as Old Delhi Railway Station. None of us had been to India before, so after looking at the above photo with the help of Mr. Google, we were kinda confident that to arrive there early in the morning should be alright. 

But, we were wrong.

India Trip Day 1 Part 1 (Delhi) - Airport & Honk

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Hi guyssss! Sorry for the long waiting for the next post. I should be writing a bit earlier, I guess. Anyway, this story is the continuation from the previous post; The Intro

International arrival @ Terminal 3, Indira Gandhi International Airport

Our day started really, really early. There was no time to wait. We rushed a bit as we had a few things to settle in the airport and then need to go to the train station as our train to Jaipur was supposedly at 4 something in the morning. I know, it's very early. How was it? I'll tell you.

India 14 Days Trip - The Intro

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As for those who follow me on Instagram (@dyllarezan) would have known, I went to India with my IMU friends, Sanaa, Fatin and Fatin's sister, Najwa from the 30th of November 2016 until 14th of December 2016. Basically, I'm gonna tell from A till Z, from how we planned, how we applied for the Visa, the planned itinerary, the real itinerary, etc. Hope you guys won't get bored hehe. Mana lah tahu, those small details might be important ones later on. I'll highlight the important stuff either in the form of a statement or maybe a question. But the posts will still be in a continuous story form.

#MyTravelokaEscapade Wish To South Korea

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First of all, you guys must have been wondering, what is Traveloka? Traveloka is actually a company or a platform from where you can book flights and hotels at a cheapest rate every day! Anytime anywhere, you just go to their website, then just directly book for flights and hotels, voila!

Everything I Never Told You

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One of the most depressing books I've ever read but I was inspired by its title.

After 17 years of studying, from Tadika Seri Berjaya, to SK Bukit Beruang, to Seri Puteri, to INTI and to now, IMU, one thing I know about myself -- I'm not gifted. I always thought I had to work harder than everyone else, but little did I know, they were studying when I was watching a movie, revising when I was procrastinating. Fifth semester of being a medical student had taught me a lot; about life, family, friends, medicine and about myself the most. 

5 Things (I Planned) To Do This Holiday

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Creds to Sobri

Study and exam weeks are the best time to think about EVERYTHING and when exam ends, everything just *poof* disappears. Before I sat for my exam last week, all ideas just flowed into my mind like the stream moves downhill, but now when I have so much time to spend, I end up doing nothing. Anyway, here are the 5 things I planned to do this holiday;

Luckily I Ran Like Crazy

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My friends and I went to MidValley after the OSCE debriefing session last Thursday. We didn't have any specific plan; just bought some stuff for our upcoming trip and spent time together before going back to our hometown. Around 6, it was time to go back. We had to take the KTM first from Midvalley and then changed to LRT in Bandar Tasik Selatan. By the time we wanted to go to the train, many people went up from downstairs, which means they were just arriving. 

Blog Tips: How To Make All Links Open In A New Tab

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I just made a new change in my blog page. If you click at any link in my page, it will open up a new tab instead of go directly to the link. I found out that it's easier if I visit anyone's blog, click on the link given and it opens a new tab; I don't have to leave the initial page and can easily click without having to return to the previous page.

Tell Me: How Do I Look?

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Do you notice something new? Probably you do!

Something I Would Never Forget

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It was around 1pm. I wanted to go back home, so as usual I have to take the LRT from Sri Petaling to Terminal Bersepadu Selatan in Bandar Tasik Selatan and board on a bus from there. It was scorching hot outside although it rained cats and dogs this morning. Too lazy to walk, I decided to book a cab using the Grab app. A few minutes later, a taxi driver's photo and details showed up on my phone screen and another couple of minutes, I got a call from an Indian uncle, telling me that he had arrived.

Conversation Between Buses

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I have to go back to KL today. New block starts tomorrow and though it's just an intro and briefing, I'm not gonna skip them. Furthermore, my friends are gonna start practising OSCE (1 month in BP makes me forget almost everything, but hopefully not!) and exam is really really near, so enough procrastinating. 

Cinderella Carriage On The Rooftop

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I just finished my one-month posting in Batu Pahat. I feel a bit relieved as staying there can be super tiring sometimes, but the sadness I felt the moment I saw 'Malacca border' was undeniable. Early mornings, long days, late on-calls and whatnots had strengthened the bond between us, making us comfortable with each other, like a family. Academically, we learned a lot about Medicine in a real setting, but not only that, we learned about each other as well. Though I can't say that one month is enough to really know someone, but it's enough to get rid of the awkwardness when eyes meet eyes. No need to pretend looking at the phone anymore haha.

It Brings Me Back To 2015

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This 'Heathens' song keeps playing in my mind. Blame the radio station that plays it every day. See, people tend to blame others instead of admitting their mistakes haha yes, I'm talking about myself. I'm currently having a posting in obstetrics and gynaecology (O&G), yup women stuff, from pregnancy to menstruation to ovary and uterus. This brings me back to the 2015, when I had my second hospital attachment a.k.a elective posting. 

I Pricked Someone's Hand!

This post is supposed to be posted on 15th September 2016.

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Creds to Mr. Google

I'm not going to write about how long I haven't written anything and how busy I am, uh-oh, I just did it haha. I have a lot of things to share throughout the one month I was 'Missing In Action', but I don't know where to start and where to put the full stop. Anyway, currently I'm having a 4-week-hospital posting in Batu Pahat, Johor. I had my Paediatrics rotation last week and just ended the medical ward rotation this afternoon.

Treat Chunks And Pieces As A Whole

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It's 1.30 am. I was supposed to sleep 2 hours ago, but my eyes seem to refuse, though I had already drunk a cup of milk. Blame the culprit; what else other than the late night thoughts, which lead to over thinking? Haha.

Eldaterra Reunion

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There's a lot of things happening right now, but I'm going to update about my batch reunion first, which was held 2 weeks ago. Just to clarify for those who do not know. Eld is actually the short form for our batch (Seri Puteri 0711) name, Eldaterra. My friends, Dala, Ayef and a few more were the masterminds of this memorable event. The most exciting part was... *drum roll* I got the chance to meet my best friends, all at once! Except for Zahraa, who's in Jordan right now. But, she's gonna come back for good soooonnnn as she'll graduate a few months more. No reason not to meet after this hehe. 

Raya Celebration Was Hmm . . .

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How was your Raya celebration guys? Hope everything went well! Mine? Alhamdulillah, 'twas fun! I've got to spend about a month at home. 2 weeks left before new semester starts, phew the time passes really fast whenever I'm at home and I don't think I'm the one who feels like this, am I right? Haha.

Luqman Was Missing!

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Meet Luqman everyone!

Today is the fifth day of Raya. Not sure if it's still considered as Raya or not. But Syawal is one month, so I consider it as a yes haha. So far, Raya has been good to me. I'm quite nervous for the upcoming new semester, marking the final semester we'll be in IMU Bukit Jalil before going to IMU clinical school in Seremban (if I pass, InshaaAllah!). But, let's spend time with family to the fullest first, shall we? After this, most of the time will be spent in hospital, so I don't think I can go back every weekend. *brb crying*

Depression And Cyberbullying

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Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorders, etc. are real. It's not a joke that you should make fun of. It might come to a point where suicidal thoughts linger in their minds, when they think life is no better than that. It is real, people. It is happening, right now, in some people.

15 Useful Tips For Krabi Budget Trip

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Here are some tips that I managed to remember. Hope this post will help you in planning your trip! 

Book Review: Bidadari - Memoir Aishah Humairah

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I've never known her in person, nor what she studied or where she lived. But one thing I know, she was a fighter. She passed away a few months ago due to SLE, but that doesn't indicate she lost to SLE. Let me tell you why. 

Why Waste When We Have A Solution?

This post is written at 11.53pm on Friday.

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Photo by Mr Google

I should be sleeping right now as I wanna wake up early tomorrow. In fact, I'm already on the bed, getting ready to sleep, but my intention is thwarted by the sudden appearance of my blogging mood, so I better not to turn it away or by the time I try to find it back, it has already gone sebab merajuk haha. 

Makan Dalam Talam

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I had my end of semester examination last Monday and it marked the end of Year 2, alhamdulillah! This semester is not a progression point for us, so no matter what marks we get, we will still proceed to the next semester. And yes, preclinical in IMU is 2.5 years. Hm maybe because the basic clinical stuff including physical examinations and procedures has already integrated into the curriculum. Anyway, I would try my best to update my blog every day! Can't promise though as my daily schedule might change as I have a never ending to-do-list for this (only) one month break haha. 

Ramadan Is Here! What Should I Do?

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Exactly 2 weeks left before my final examination. I'm so sorry for leaving this blog hiatus for quite some time. Anyway, today is the second day of the month of Ramadan and Alhamdulillah we are still here to taste the ni'mah of Ramadan. It's not too late to start listing down your Ramadan resolutions, as what people always say 'Better late than never', and I'm sure most of you who are reading this post will start speaking inside, reminding your heart what your resolutions are. It can be anything. From waking up for sahoor, helping the needy to standing a part of the night for tahajjud.

That Girl Is So Ugly!

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"Lelaki tu handsome tapi isteri dia tak lawa."

"Mak cantik tapi anak tak handsome langsung." 

What is lawa (beauty) to you? 
How do you define it? 

Ragam Ayah Macam Macam

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Hey guyssss! I have so many posts in the draft, but lack of time to edit and publish them. I just arrived KL from Melaka this evening, so I thought why don't I spend some time updating my blog. Anyway, final examination is just a month away! Weehooo.

The Other Side of KL

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Kuala Lumpur, the capital city of Malaysia, is like a heart to the body and a pacemaker to the heartbeats. The magnificent skyscrapers touching the sky, incredible architectural details portraying their own beauty, a vast, accessible transportation means making travelling so much easier and whatnots have created a significant invisible boundary between the urban lifestyle and the other side of KL. The other side of KL in this context represents a large community of citizens that most of us do not aware of, including the old me.

Playing With Electric

This post is written on 18th April 2016.

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No Monday Blues for me as I slept early on the night before, as usual haha. Woke up and got ready early this morning as I thought the practical session for my group was at 8, until Fatin told us in the WhatsApp group that the timetable in IMU portal states 8.30am. Today's practical was about nerve (urat saraf) conduction. Sanaa and I arrived quite late this morning (bangun awal pun sampai still tak awal haha) and we made our own group of 2. Later, Bryan joined us. 

First part, we had to draw the median nerve using a stick of green coloured wax-like-crayon. Here's a picture showing the median nerve. As you can see, the median nerve supplies the first three fingers (from the thumb). So, basically everything about the movement, pain etc is related to the median nerve. (Boring nya Dylla ni tunjuk pasal urat saraf pula . . .)

Haha wait a second, the interesting part is yet to come. 

Here comes the exciting one. During the second part of the session, we had to pick a subject and Bryan was okay to become the 'lucky' person (hehe) to undergo the Nerve Conduction Velocity (NCV) test. Sanaa set up the wires, connecting them to Bryan's forearm and power generator, while I handled the computer software. 

In this test, we had to stimulate the nerve by giving a low voltage of electric current to the subject's forearm. 2 pads that were put on the thenar muscle (area below the thumb) will pick up the signal and from the result that will be shown on the screen together with a certain length, we have to find the velocity or in other word, the speed of how fast the conduction. 

Dylla, can you skip the fact part? Okay, fine I'll cut it here haha. 

Some of our friends who became the subjects screamed a bit the first time they were being introduced with the electric current. Sanaa and I were curious, so we tried to do it on ourselves. It wasn't painful, but the first one was always like a jerky-shock-kind of feeling. Sanaa and Bryan were playful, teasing me - Sanaa told Bryan to increase the electrical charge to the maximum voltage that was available, while Bryan moved the cursor to the 'stimulate' button and clicked it a few times. Haha kurang asam betul.

Although the test isn't really accurate and reliable, it is good enough to have the general idea of how fast your nerve conducts the electrical signal and at the same time, having fun discovering something while 'playing' with the electric. These videos below are recorded by Sanaa during the practical session. Look at how they increased the electrical voltage and teased me, cis haha. Anyway, I had so much fun learning about the nerve conductivity with them :)

At the end of the session, all subjects from each group had to write the speed / velocity of their own NCV test on the whiteboard and it turned out the normal range is about 50m/sec. Subhanallah, look at how fast one's nerve can conduct the signal. That's why the delay between when you think of something and the response is negligible, You don't even realise it. One nerve gets injured can cause a lot of problems, whether in sensing or moving or might be both. The little things like these are part of the blessings that we get.

After 4-week of learning the musculoskeletal system, I came to a sense, where I realised there are a lot of things and blessing that I have, but I overlooked before and craved for things that I don't have and wish to own. It's not that we can't wish for things we don't have, but to belittle certain blessings, and compare ourselves with others are a no no when there are people out there who wish they can write without having to bear the stiffness on their fingers like us, walk without having pain on their big toes, unbutton the shirt by themselves and climb the stairs as normal people do.

The world is not a wish-granting factory because if it was as easy as ABC, what is the meaning of heaven then? Whenever you feel sad about something you don't have, just remind yourself for all the blessings that you have. You'll feel much better, InshaaAllah.

Be happy to be in your own skin :)

I Almost Died!

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Hey guysss! Finally, I have an ample time and the mood to update this blog. Fuhh *tiup habuk* haha. To be honest, I have a few posts in the draft that I should have posted a long time ago, but then those posts are not well written with incomplete paragraphs and no-mood-to-continue writing, so I decided to discard them all, muahahaha. 

We already finished our 4-week reproductive system and currently in a new system, musculoskeletal system. Apparently, there is a lot of names of bones and muscles to be remembered, not to forget the procedures and steps of physical examinations during the clinical sessions. The final semester examination is getting closer and closer. The extensive list of topics for both theories and clinical skills makes me freak out inside every time I try to remind myself about it, but chill Dylla chill, don't let the panic attack knocks the sympathetic pathway in you.

'I almost died for 2 times' seems kinda over-exaggerated, but it's true though that I said, "Alhamdulillah, still hidup." for 2 times this week. Oh, and I just realised it was the same person who called my name, "Dyllaaa" when encountering both incidents haha.

The first incident happened when Sanaa and I were walking from Vista to IMU. The distance to IMU is just about 5-minute away from Vista, minus the waiting time for the lift and walking from the block gate to the guard house. As usual, we waited for the traffic light to turn red before crossing the road. The cars completely stopped, and we crossed the 2-lane road, walking in front of a white Myvi. As we were just in the middle of the first lane, suddenly the Myvi moved and almost hit me on my hip. With an increase in the normal tone, Sanaa said "Dyllaaa" and pulled me fast. I was aware that the Myvi moved really slow, but we never know what could happen though. The person might accidentally put a lot of pressure on the gas pedal and an unforgettable incident can happen instead.

To think back about the second incident makes me tee-hee. I felt shy and ashamed rather than feeling scared haha. After a 1-hour class by Dr Shar Mariam ended, Sanaa, Fatin and I were really hungry, so we decided to go to Pandai Serai (IMU cafe) to have a lunch. As we already waited for the elevator for a long time, I, being the most eager person to go for lunch simply went into the elevator after a bunch of people without realising that there was no one pressing the open button. The elevator door closed when I was entering, and yes it literally closed, causing my body being compressed between the 2 hard metals haha. I heard Sanaa called my name, but it occurred in the blink of an eye. Sanaa and Fatin asked me whether I was okay or not and I replied yes. But, somehow my inner voice said, "Alhamdulillah, tak terkepit." Imagine if the lift was like the one in Final Destination where the girl's head was being chopped off from her body.. err let's not think too far.

Alhamdulillah. I'm still alive and have the chance to repent and do good deeds. Every day is a brand new day. Focus to live the day to the fullest, rather than thinking about the past that you can't change. Bad thing that happened in the past is something for us to learn from, so that it won't repeat in the future. Have a good day!

P/s: I'm so sorry for the long silence. Later I'll have a blogwalking to those blogs who always pay this blog a visit and leave comments. Thank you so much!

Resipi Mudah 'Congo Bars'

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Memandangkan Dylla dah janji nak share resipi congo bars yang Dylla guna untuk buat yang macam dalam Instagram Dylla tu, so here it is! 

Ibu lah yang memula beritahu nak buat congo bars. Dylla ingat ibu saja je cakpa nak buat, tapi rupa-rupanya siap dah beli barang apa semua haaa apa lagi Dylla lagi lah bersemangat nak buat. Dylla ni jenis manusia kalau barang dah tersedia memang rajin. Kalau kena cari bahan bahan kekadang sampai terbatal terus niat nak bake cake ke apa hahaha.

Resipi ni diambil dari blog Kak Azlita Masam Manis. Caranya mudah and simple! Tak payah pening pening kepala nak cari bahan ni kat mana, bahan itu kat mana hehe. 

315 gm tepung gandum
2 1/2 sudu kecil baking powder
1/2 sudu kecil garam
150 gm mentega
320 gm gula perang - boleh kurangkan
3 biji telur
1 sudu kecil esen vanila
250 gm chocolate chips
1 cawan kacang pecan atau apa2 kekacang - optional (Dylla guna almond)
Kepingan badam untuk taburan - optional

Cara-cara membuat:
1. Ayak tepung, baking powder dan garam dalam bekas besar dan ketepikan.
2. Dalam bekas lain campurkan gula perang bersama mentega dan kacau rata sehingga mentega larut.
3. Masukkan telur sebiji demi sebijik dan putar sebati.
4. Masukkan esen vanila.F
5. Masukkan tepung, baking powder dan garam yang telah diayak dan kacau rata.
6. Akhir sekali masukkan chocolate chips dan kekacang dan gaul sempurna.
7. Tuangkan adunan kedalam tin pembakar ukuran 13 X 9 yang telah digris dgn mentega dan dialas dengan kertas minyak.
8. Ratakan permukan adunan dan taburkan kepingan badam dan chocolate chips jika suka sebagai hiasan.
9. Bakar pada suhu 170C selama lebih kurang 30 minit atau sehingga permukaan atas kuning keemasan. Jangan terlebih bakar.

Dylla takde badam, jadi Dylla memang letak chocolate chips 100g sebab tak perasan dalam resipi guna 250g and kacang almond. Boleh juga kalau nak letak M&M, peanut butter chips atau pun tabur sesikit karamel haa suka hati, mengikut kreativiti. 

Oh lagi satu, oven Dylla kecil and Dylla takde dulang bakar size tu, jadi Dylla guna je yang tebal. First time cuba. Keluar masuk oven banyak kali sebab takut dalam tak masak. At first macam lembik tengah tengah, tapi after awhile bila dah sejuk, tak lembik dah, Tak sabar nak rasa punya pasal, Dylla terus je potong time lembik, tu pasal gambar pun cam tak lawa sangat haha.

Nah ni gambar congo bars yang Dylla buat. Taraaaa! 

Sorry mampu upload gambar print screen je sebab Dylla tinggalkan laptop kat KL, so susah nak transfer gambar sobsob. Oh dalam Instagram Dylla ada short video process nak buat congo bars ni juga. Kalau rajin jemputlah singgah tengok hehe. 

Bagi Dylla yang kuat manis, congo bars yang ni memang manis manis manis (ulang 3x manis haha), so disarankan untuk kurangkan sikit gula especially orang yang tak suka makan manis. Jagalah kesihatan anda. Pesanan ikhlas dari Dyllarezan hehe. 

Selamat mencuba semua!

Bits And Pieces I Learned From The Straight Path Convention

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Alhamdulillah, All praises are due to Allah. I feel much better nowadays though we just ended the 4-week-reproductive system and started a new system (Musculoskeletal System) last Monday. So far everything is fine, just a lot of bones and muscles names to be memorised haha. Today I'm just gonna share my experience and bits and pieces of knowledges I got from The Straight Path Convention that I went last weekend. The 2-day event was the second time they held (last year was the first time) and this time the theme was 'Major Obstacles'. 

It was my first time going to a large Islamic conference. Yes, another tick on the bucket list, that's for sure. Though people sometimes say that ignorance is a bliss, but I reckon it's not suitable to use in this kind of situation, and to use the word 'ignorance' is kinda immense, so I'll use the word 'unaware' instead. I admit that I was unaware of the huge impact that this talk can give to someone and prolly could change one's life forever. 

The days before going to the talk were among the worst I had in my life. A series of problems, one after another came to me and wandered in my mind, asking for solutions and demanding to be solved. I didn't know where to start. I might seem okay from the outside, but inside, only Allah knows. Serabut sampai rasa nak tidur je, tak nak fikir apa apa. I longed for things I didn't have and ignored the blessings that I had. Crying with no tear, screaming with no voice. Silence and loneliness were really overwhelming though I was surrounded by cheerful and wonderful people. I worried about my worry. I worry about the future. I worry about everything. 

Last week's event had changed my thoughts and perceptions of life in this Dunya (world). There were 5 speakers who involved in the conference and each one of them talked about different topics. InshaaAllah I'll talk about them one by one in this blog. I'm currently in Melaka and I left my notebook in Vista, so basically I'll just tell you some of the things that I could remember clearly. Before I start, a big thank to my maklang (aunt) as she was the one who invited and belanja me for almost everything, from ticket to lunch, dinner and even a book!

I arrived quite early on the first day and as maklang had already registered for me and there was about 20-minute-time left before entering the hall, I took this chance to have a look at the books they were selling outside of the hall. After a quick flipped and skimmed through a book entitled 'You Can Be The Happiest Woman In The World', I decided to buy it (the one that Maklang paid for me). 

A lot of things had been discussed and elaborated well by the speakers. Words uttered by them went straight into my heart and left a significant mark in it. They talked about asking for forgiveness, repentance, the act of taubah, the effects of sins etc. The first topic was about the effects of the sins, and some of the effects that had been listed by Mufti Menk were sad, lonely, worry, etc. How to know whether the feelings are because of sin or a test from Him? Mufti Menk said, "Check back your deeds. Look back at what you have done." Astaghfirullahalazim. A word with a deep meaning that stroke straight into my heart and made me cried inside.

It might be a test, or the effects of sins I'd done. Then he said some of the sins that look 'minor' to us might be a major ones to Him and a repetition of a minor sin will become a major sin. Astaghfirullahalazim.

The speakers also talked about don't delay your salah and always ask for forgiveness from Him. When to change yourself? Right here, right now. Don't wait as today might be the last day we live in this world. We never know when will be the last day of our lives. Make ibadah esp salah as a priority. Fit your schedule into ibadah, rather than fitting ibadah into your schedule. MashaaAllah.

They also said about the negative effects of watching movies, listening to music and songs that make you wanna dance, wasting your time on things that don't give any benefits, etc. Subhanallah. May He forgives and guides us in everything we do. May He grants us the strength to avoid all the negative things.

What to do if you think all the feelings that you feel are the effects of the sins you did? Ask for his forgiveness, repent and change. When to change? Now. Never think that you've already done a lot of sins in the past, so Allah will never forgive you. No. That's the devil's game. The scholars told us that Allah will forgive you, but you have to ask for forgiveness and Allah loves those who seek for forgiveness.

"... Indeed, Allah loves those who are constantly repentant and loves those who purify themselves." [Al-Baqarah, 2:222]

At the same time, I also read the book that I bought there. Yes, the 'You Can Be The Happiest Woman In The World' book. One of the subtopic that I encountered when reading the book was 'When things become unbearable, turn to Allah'.

Here's something from the book:

Ibn al-Jawzi said:

"Something was causing me a great deal of grief and distress, and I started to think long and hard about how to get out of this situation by any means, but I could not find any way out. Then I came across this verse:

“… And whosoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out (of every difficulty).” [Quran, 65:2] 

I realised that taqwa (piety, fearing Allah) is the way out of every kind of grief and distress. As soon as I followed the path of taqwa, I found the day out.” 

Every day is a brand new day and like the scholars said, change yourself. Either in miles, or metres or even millimetres, it doesn't matter. As long as you try to change. Maybe today you wake up early for salah. The next day you do another good deed. May He eases everything for us. 

I wanna change and become a better person. I would like to apologise for any wrongdoings I did in the past and do tell me if I made any mistakes in the future. If you know any talks or conventions that will be held, do inform me as I'm looking forward for another talk like this. Feed the mind, but don't forget to feed the soul as well. InshaaAllah.

How To Write Bold, Italic and Strikethrough Words In Whatsapp

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

One of the new features that has just been updated from Whatsapp is how to write words in BOLD, ITALIC AND STRIKETHROUGH. Here's an example;

It's so simple and you only have to write 2 additional symbols for each kind. The example sentence that I'll be using for each type is 'My name is Ardilla'.

1.  BOLD - Add * before and after the sentence.
Eg: *My name is Ardilla*

2.  ITALIC - Add _ before and after the sentence.
Eg: _My name is Ardilla_ 

3.  STRIKETHROUGH - Add ~ before and after the sentence.
Eg: ~My name is Ardilla~

And you can combine 2 or all of the types at the same time too! For example if I wanna make it like this 'My name is Ardilla', simply write either _*My name is Ardilla*_ or *_My name is Ardilla_*. Make sure you have the two symbols/characters before and after the sentence. You might be thinking, nahh, it's complicated and time-consuming as well, so why should I use this? Well, it might be useful though. As for example, if you wanna ask for something, but then you feel shy, so you can use this to indirectly tell the person you want it actually haha.

Eg: I REALLY WANT IT don't want. Thanks :)

I guess that's it for now hehe. Till here, assalamualaikum!

A Cup of Coffee With Dr Beni Isman Rusani

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 

Whenever someone asks me what I wanna specialise in, I would answer, "I'm not sure as I haven't graduated from medical school yet, but for now, I'm thinking of being a cardiologist." It has always been cardiology ever since I was a kid, even before I knew the existence of the word 'cardiology'. Maybe because it has something to do and is correlated to my late Datuk, who had undergone bypass, passed away because of a heart attack and the one (other than my parents) who always gave me support and motivation to become a doctor. 

To meet and have a nice chit-chat with a cardiologist is like ticking off another bucket list for me, even better with the presence of a cup of coffee, that's for sure. I tweet a lot during the competition organised by Dr Beni and Dr Akmal with the hashtag #Benism on twitter, but unfortunately luck wasn't on my side as I was not chosen even for the top 3 finalists. My best friend told me that it's okay, you'll get a better chance later on. And yes, it did. A better one.

Everything started with an intention of buying a new phone after my sister told me her handphone has already gone insane. I was thinking of giving mine to her and buying a new one, which finally approved by my parents after a few times of "Eleh, alasan je tu" haha. Just right after I talked and dealt with my parents, I saw Dr Beni's tweet, which without any further delay, I decided to send him a direct message, but I could not do so as he doesn't follow me, so I just replied to his tweet and he dm-ed me, asking whether I'm interested for real or not. After a few messages telling him I already paid, where to meet, etcetera, it had finally brought me to the National Heart Institute also known as IJN on last Monday (140316).

Dr Beni offered to treat me and Nisa some drinks, while we were searching for a place to sit and have a look at the phone that I bought from him. Thank the traffic jammed and the fact that he had finished his work, Nisa and I had a chance to spend one hour and a half with Dr Beni calmly, sipping on our hot Caffè Latte in Gloria Jean's Coffee, telling our concerns, with him sharing some useful advices and tips, interesting experiences and also his inspiring journey of becoming a cardiologist. He's not only a cardiologist, but he is also really into reading and writing as well, just like me and to look at him makes me feel more motivated and inspired to become like him in the future, which at the same time scratches off the negative thoughts of I can't(s) from my mind.

In spite of the fact that the memory of the conversation has turned into chunks of words I could hardly recall, I did manage to save some of the keywords and important points that would always be kept in a special room inside my mind with a hope I would always remember them. (Just a reminder, points 1-5 are a combination of his words with my own to make the sentences complete and understandable, from my point of view).

1. Don't ask the right question when you were sad or angry or feeling down dan yang sewaktu dengannya. This is one of my favourites as it's kinda similar to one of the principles in my life; "Don't promise when you're happy, don't decide when you're sad, and don't reply when you're angry." Senang cerita, never make any decisions on temporary feelings.

2. Find a passion to pull you back on the right track when you're being dragged by the feeling of emptiness, stuffiness and like what Dr Beni said, "Tepu". All this while I always thought that being a doctor means you give almost every single time you have for others, but it's not true actually. Doctors are still human beings and to catch yourself back from being drifted away after a long working hours is a must or you might get lost in the labyrinth of darkness. And for him, it's writing. Writing has always been his passion. Just like me. Nisa (click here to read her blog!) sempat lagi promote my blog, haha segan. But, it's okay. Dr Beni won't read it hehe.

3. Stress and failures are normal during study and in this content, as a medical student. Dr Beni shared a story experienced by himself when he was in UKM. He felt really stressed, walking back and forth at the corridor of the sixth floor, thinking of why did he choose Medicine yada yada. But, that's life is all about. There are ups and downs, highs and lows. What you have to do is to remain focused and strive for the best you can.

4. Read the same clinical examination book over and over again won't make you a good doctor. But, meeting real patients and having more hands-on practices would. He asked us about the learning system in IMU, so we told him we already learned how to clerk history and did most of the physical examinations (we did emphasise on the word 'heart' hehe) during our clinical sessions since the first semester yada yada. Other than practising, he also reminded us to read everything about the case of a patient before meeting him/her, so that you'd gain more knowledges, just like what CSU doctors always tell us.

5. According to Dr Beni, presenting a case is like selling a product. He gave 2 examples; pneumonia and TB. You have to discover more about the product (disease) before you sell (present) them. Make sure you ask everything about the product (disease), so that you know everything about what the patient is having and indirectly would make you more confident when presenting the case.

Before the conversation ended, I told him that I was thinking of being a cardiologist, but I always wonder why there are not so many female doctors in this specialisation. First thing first, he asked me "Do you like ECG?" which I answered, "Middle" in return. He mentioned he's also in the middle of I-really-like-ECG and I-really hate-ECG, as obviously that (the ECG) is what he has to look at and interpret every day. The explanation of why most female doctors are not in the cardiology department might be because of the working hours and the fact that only a few hospitals provide posting on cardiology department.

Though we never know what lies in his kind heart and lingers in his wise mind, his charisma and the charm he has, the aura he brings wherever he goes, with his words full of knowledges and thoughts to ponder make everything about him seems perfect and inspiring.

This is a chapter of a dream came true, which starts with a mobile phone.

Nisa's hehe

Where's the photo of me with Dr Beni?

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4D3N Krabi Budget Trip (Less Than RM700!) - Itinerary & Expenses

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

I just started a new semester 2 weeks ago and I'm still in the process to catch the pace. Today is Saturday and it's time for me to relax weehoo! I'm gonna update about Krabi itinerary and expenses. Let's start with the itinerary first, shall we?

(Click on the pink-bold words to read more)

Day 1 (24/1/2016, Sunday)
0730 - Arrived in Thailand.
0915 - Out of the airport and went to Luna House in Ao Nang by a taxi.
1000 - Arrived at the Luna House.
1100 - Morning walk to the Ao Nang Beach and at the same time tried finding packages for the next 3 days. We had lunch at the Bamboo Restaurant and then continued searching for packages with the best price, before heading to the Ao Nang Beach. Too lazy to walk so we took a tuktuk back to the Luna House.
1430 - Arrived at the Luna House and slept until 5pm. Penat sangat hehe.
1715 - Went to the Night Market in Krabi Town by a tuktuk. The journey was about 25 minutes from our stay place.
2030 - Back to the hotel.
2100 - Arrived at the Luna House.

Day 2 (25/1/2016, Monday)
0600 - Woke up.
0830 - Had a breakfast while waiting for the van to the Hot Stream, Emerald Pool and Blue Pool.
0900 - The van arrived.
1020 - Arrived at the Hot Spring Waterfall. We were given 1 hour and had to gather back at 11.20am and continued journey to the Emerald Pool and Blue Pool.
1145 - Arrived at the Emerald Pool and Blue Pool. 
1340 - We were supposed to gather back at 1.20pm, but Sobri and I were 20 minutes late because of (a bit) poor time management. Left the pools and went for elephant trekking.
1500 - Arrived at the elephant trekking place. The journey took quite some time as the driver sent back those who didn't book for elephant trekking. 
1600 - Ended the package and went back to Luna House. The elephant trekking place is situated only about 10-15 minutes from Luna House. 
2115 - Went out for dinner.

Day 3 (26/1/2016, Tuesday)
0915 - The van to Phi Phi Islands Tour arrived.
1020 - Bamboo Island. Spent time, swimming and beach bumming until 11am.
1125 - Snorkeling near the Monkey Island.
1220 - Buffet lunch at the Koh Phi Phi Don.
1330 - Left Koh Phi Phi Don and went to Maya Bay.
1430 - Reached Maya Bay, swimming and beach bumming. Spent about 1 hour and 30 minutes there before going back to where we started.
1630 - Arrived Luna House.
1815 - Went out, finding souvenirs and food hunting.

Day 4 (27/1/2016, Wednesday)
0930 - Left Luna House to the kayak place by a tuk tuk taxi.
1030 - Reached the kayak place. After a briefing, started kayaking for 7km.
1200 - Ended kayaking and went back to Luna House.
1530 - Left Ao Nang. The airport is about 40 minutes away from Ao Nang.
1715 - Boarded into the flight. Arrived at 8.30pm, local time.


The currency is no longer RM1 = 10baht. When we were there, RM1 was about 8.5baht.

Flight ticket (return); RM210
Taxi from airport to Ao Nang; 600baht per taxi, 150baht per person.
Tuktuk from Ao Nang Beach back to Luna House; 120baht per tuktuk, 30baht per person.
Tuktuk from Ao Nang to Krabi Town (return); 600baht per tuktuk, 150baht per person.
Van from Luna House to airport; 500baht per van, 125baht per person.

Triple room in Luna House; 1300baht per night. 3 nights = 3900baht.
1300baht per person.

Hot Stream, Emerald Pool, Blue Pool & Elephant Trekking; 700baht (not inc. lunch)
Phi Phi Islands Tour; 900baht (inc. buffet lunch)
Bamboo Island + Maya Bay; 400baht to set foot on the National Park.
Kayaking; 400baht

Total expenses (not inc. food and souvenirs): RM210 + 4155baht (~RM488) = RM698


Just to inform, I already uploaded the Krabi Trip video in my YouTube channel so feel free to watch it!

Click here;
JAN 2016 // KRABI

Enjoy watching!

I Met Pregnant Superwomen(?)

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

I just started my life as a fourth semester medical student in IMU last week, with the reproductive system as the first system to learn this semester. Weehoo for some people, but it's the same for me. I thought this semester would be different with newly energised Ardilla after 2 months of holiday and the spirit to work harder, but meyhhh. The same Ardilla who easily falls asleep, especially in the evening, even though everyone else is laughing about something. I'm still in the process to change myself, fighting Dylla!

Anyway, I haven't written for quite some time, I know right! Writing is something that I do during leisure time when I feel like I wanna do it. But, if that time I prefer sleeping or studying, I'm so not gonna write any because it will turn out into something that is forced-unhappily written haha. 

I had my first and last clinic visit of this semester today and it was a wonderful experience, somehow reminds me of the elective posting in O&G department I had last semester. Everything such as how they record, medications and supplements they give and their concerns are almost the same, but the setting is completely different, that's for sure. I still have to work out on rephrasing the questions and practice more on history taking as there were a few awkward what-to-ask-more full stops during the clerking session as I kept thinking about the flow we were being taught during the clinical session. It made me feel more like a robot rather than a human being who's having a nice chit-chat with another human being. 

While I was taking the history from a patient, my group mate informed me that we had to go for the home visit. 'twas my first time knowing there's such thing called home visit for antenatal (before birth) and postnatal (after birth). We had the chance to go to 2 houses before continuing on the observation in the clinic itself. The first house we visited was for the antenatal care, while the second one was for the postnatal care. 

This home visit is made specially for those who either always skip the follow up they're supposed to go or having difficulties to go to the clinic such as no transport, no one to bring them, etcetera. Medicine is not just about learning the part of the human body, the unique names of the dangerous mosquitoes that can cause fatal diseases or the types of drugs needed to treat a disease, but Medicine is more than that. Today I met superwomen who either carrying a foetus in her belly or has become a mother to a cute newly born baby. They looked really strong despite whatever difficulties they are in and obstacles they have to go through. 

I learn not only how they manage and conduct this home visit, but also the lifestyle of some citizens in a part of this country. It opened my eyes, making me feel more grateful with what I have. We tend to feel sad and frustrated for not having this and that, neglecting what we already have that might be a wish to someone else. It's not wrong to say "I wish" as it might be a determination, which at the same time raising the spirit in yourself, but it's not okay to complain all the times. Today, I saw a mother of 6 who lives with her children in a small house with a set of torn sofa, a very old small fridge, some broken cupboards and a bed. How can I not be grateful when I have a really comfortable place to stay and study, with complete basic needs and facilities? 

Don't complain too much and be grateful. Alhamdulillah.

4D3N Krabi Budget Trip Video

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

My best friends and I

I just uploaded Krabi video weeeee. Feel free to watch and drop some comments if you have anything to say. And yes, do subscribe my YouTube channel for more upcoming videos! 

What do you guys think about this video? Tell me!

4D3N Krabi Budget Trip (Day 4) - Kayaking

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Hope you guys won't get bored with my Krabi posts. I better post everything while I still remember before it turns to chunks and fragments, which are hardly to be combined. Who knows, this post might be useful for those who need it, ye dak? 

It was our fourth and last day in Krabi. Luckily I had packed most of the things the night before as we had to check out early in the morning. We checked out around 8.30am and asked for a permission from the owner of Luna House to leave our bags first because I bet they won't provide any lockers later. The owner agreed to let us leave our bags behind the counter in the lobby area.

Tuk tuk taxi fetched us at 9.30am and it took 1 hour to arrive at the kayaking place. The tour guide gave us waterproof bag to put our gadgets and valuable stuff. We left our empty bags in a room where they kept the life jackets and other properties. The place is quite convenient as they provide ladies and gents, some benches, a restaurant and a small shop where you can buy snacks and drinks. Sobri bought a packet of Oreo and a bottle of mineral water for us 4 as we hadn't had our breakfast that morning.

We were given a demonstration and explanation about the kayak, the route, the safety, etc. You can choose whether you wanna use the life jacket or not. To be safe, we decided to wear the life jacket and each one of us took it together with the paddle before heading to our kayaks. The last time I went for kayaking was when I was in primary school, during standard 4 if I'm not mistaken.

We paddled approximate 7km from the start to the end point. It was a long long long way to go. We started from the sea, then we went into the mangrove swamp, where the monkeys and crickets and insects live.

In the sea.

Sorry for the slanted horizontal line.

Just entered the mangrove swamp.

There were real monkeys in the mangrove swamp. They seemed really naughty and looked like they might hop into our kayaks at any time! While I was freaking out, the others especially the orang putihs appeared to adore them haha. We also passed through The Canyon, Crocodile Cave, etc. Though its name is Crocodile Cave, there's no crocodile there according to the sea kayak guide as he himself has never seen one. It's just a story passed from one generation to another generation. 

 Gigih betul my best friends mendayung.

While waiting for Audi and Marni.

The four of us!

Into the mangrove swamp. Literally.

The life jacket was too big for me. Or maybe because my legs are longer than my torso. Tenggelamlah daku di dalam jaket~~~

This is where they call 'The Canyon'.

Ardilla and her pink paddle.

Audi also tenggelam in her life jacket haha ada geng.

Excuse my gedebak-sunburnt-and-oily face.

Almost reached to the end!

7km of paddling and my hands were sore. Acehh, gaya cakap macam dayung banyak haha. At the end of the long-journey paddling, we ate some fruits while sitting on the bench provided, waiting for our tuk tuk to fetch and send us back to Luna House. The ride was somewhat bumpy, but I managed to fall asleep. We had our lunch at the Kedai Makan rakan, as usual, and at 3.30pm we went to the airport by van (500baht) that we had booked on the day before. The airport is 40minutes away from the Luna House.

Naik flight yada yada and...

arrived in Malaysia at 8.30pm.

P/s: Gonna post our trip video later, so stay tuneeedddd!

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