Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

How was your Raya celebration guys? Hope everything went well! Mine? Alhamdulillah, 'twas fun! I've got to spend about a month at home. 2 weeks left before new semester starts, phew the time passes really fast whenever I'm at home and I don't think I'm the one who feels like this, am I right? Haha.

Anyway, this post is gonna be a throwback post about what happened the last few days, with a combination of writing, photos and videos from snapchat and 'boomerang' apps.

Before Raya, I went to Guardian to look around and have some fun trying the make up testers on the back of my hand. I ended up buying these 2 gorgeous stuff, which I never know how to use. I simply put them on my eyebrows and eyelids, blended here and there with multiple kind of shades and looked at the mirror to see the final result. Not that I used them without looking at the mirror, but it's different when you look one part of your face at a time and when you look it as a whole.

I looked at the mirror and saw my face.

It. Was. A. Disaster.

I immediately kept them in my 'makeup bag' after I posted a quick review of me using these in my snapchat haha.


As usual, the night before Raya, we gathered at our kampung (Ibu's side) and helped doing some chores; washing dishes, sweeping the floor, etc. On the first day of Raya, though I have some makeup palettes and a few (old) eyeliners, I wore nothing on my face. Just a lil powder and a touch of tinted lip balm on my lips so that my face wouldn't look pale and sick. Makeup and I still don't have the 'chemistry' and I didn't dare to try 'em on a perfect nice day and good weather. 


From left; Ica, Haniza, Me




We spent the second night of Raya at another kampung, this time was Ayah's side. Tella, my sister and I thought of going to either Tesco or Aeon Jusco to buy the trending Samyang Ramen to taste and at the same time do the famous 'Spicy Ramen Challenge, but unfortunately there were none left when we arrived there. 

"Samyang takde, nasib sambal ayam ada." 



That's about it I guess. And the photo below shows my 'outfit of the day' hashtag ootd which I wore on the first day of raya. Real candid, tengah betulkan tudung gitu hehe. 

Segan pula nak upload bebanyak kat sini. 
So, more photos can be seen in my Instagram (@dyllarezan)
My snapchat account username is dyllarezan as well :)



Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 

Today is the fifth day of Raya. Not sure if it's still considered as Raya or not. But Syawal is one month, so I consider it as a yes haha. So far, Raya has been good to me. I'm quite nervous for the upcoming new semester, marking the final semester we'll be in IMU Bukit Jalil before going to IMU clinical school in Seremban (if I pass, InshaaAllah!). But, let's spend time with family to the fullest first, shall we? After this, most of the time will be spent in hospital, so I don't think I can go back every weekend. *brb crying*

In a blink of an eye, day passes so fast, leaving yesterday as a memory. I ate so many ketupats and sambal bali (favourite dish cooked by nenek), and little did I realise how fast Raya Day 1 has become Day 5, phew. Nonetheless, I still can recall what happened on the first day of Raya. 

Luqman is my cute-little-youngest cousin who had just turned 4 yesterday. It started when we were waiting for nenek and others who went to the nearby mosque to perform Raya prayer. Makcu and I stayed with the kids at home. While sitting comfortably on nenek's sofa, watching takbir Raya on television, Makcu gave us duit Raya. "Yeay, second sampul of the day!" I screamed silently in my heart. Dah besar panjang still nak duit Raya, yelah tak kerja lagi lah katakan hehe. The kids, including Luqman, Hannah, Imran, etc. were in the second living room. Everyone seemed busy playing games and chit-chatting.

Makcu came out from her room at the back and called Luqman's name. 

No answer. 

No answer. 

"Muhammad Hami Luqmannnn."
No answer. 

Makcu asked my other cousins who were sitting in the second living room, but none of them knew where was Luqman. We became panicked. We checked for the doors, but nothing showed someone had gotten out. Even Luqman's shoes were still at the usual place. We wondered and wandered. We literally called his name while searching for him at every corner of the house. Then suddenly one of his sisters came out of the prayer room and said, "Ni lah Luqman." 

Everyone rushed to the prayer room.

Luqman came out from his hiding place -- behind the door. But he still didn't wanna come out of the room. He wasn't trying to play hide and seek. The truth is, he sulked because he thought his mother, makcu, didn't wanna give him duit Raya haha how cuteeeee is that?! He stayed there for about 1 hour and didn't lift up his foot at all, even until my grandmother entered the room to persuade him haha. One whole day my nenek teased him, telling us that she had never found a kid who sulks because of duit Raya, haha Luqman is indeed a really cute cheeky boy!

Meet Luqman everyone!




Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 

Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorders, etc. are real. It's not a joke that you should make fun of. It might come to a point where suicidal thoughts linger in their minds, when they think life is no better than that. It is real, people. It is happening, right now, in some people.

I learned about depression and bipolar disorder last semester, though not really in detail like a psychiatrist nor a clinical student, but it is enough to let us know that they are real. It might be seen as ridiculous, but none of us know what these people have to go through. People look at these disorders lightly because they simply think "orang tu tak kuat iman" or "ikutkan sangat perasaan tu", and instantly label them as itu ini. Those who only give negative comments instead of the constructive ones should learn how to understand a situation before judging and condemning.

Cyberbullying makes it worse.

Yes, I agree that suicide is not the right way to solve a problem as it is a major sin, and we still have Allah to whom we shall ask for help and The Only One who can help us. Even in Al-Quran has stated..

فَإِذَا بَلَغْنَ أَجَلَهُنَّ فَأَمْسِكُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ أَوْ فَارِقُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ وَأَشْهِدُوا ذَوَيْ عَدْلٍ مِّنكُمْ وَأَقِيمُوا الشَّهَادَةَ لِلَّهِ ۚ ذَٰلِكُمْ يُوعَظُ بِهِ مَن كَانَ يُؤْمِنُ بِاللَّهِ وَالْيَوْمِ الْآخِرِ ۚ وَمَن يَتَّقِ اللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُ مَخْرَجًا

"... And whosoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way out for him to get out (of every difficulty)." Qur'an [65:2]

But, bashing and mocking are not the kind of advice you should give to her/him either. It's really saddening to see how people treat certain people. And this issue is quite related to what I had written previously, 'That Girl Is So Ugly!' because I bet if she were in your category of the 'Perfect Girl', she might be treated much nicely. 

If you notice, this cepat-melatah kind of society and mentality nowadays is really, really fast at spreading stuff like this. Cakap sepatah salah or upload salah angle sikit (which makes the photo being looked from a different point of view), haa less than 5 minutes more than 200 people already know. 

Before teasing someone who is known to have any kind of disorder or health issue, make yourself acknowledge on how serious are depression, bipolar disorder, etc. can be. Calling someone as attention seeker, drama queen or even worse, whore, is a pathetic attitude. Why be rude when you can be good? 

Anyway, I'm not backing up anyone because I don't know the truth, and I'm not here to tell you who's right and who's wrong, neither do I try to point anyone as the subject of argument. It's a broad issue, not being specific to any individual. This cyberbullying issue happens worldwide. Too much negativity on social media nowadays. It becomes a medium for torturing a person's mind and 'who-get-the-most-like-win' competition. We can't just make them shut, so what's left for us to do is to leave the social media. 

And for those who only know how to find others' faults and mistakes, stop doing that. If you have nothing good to say, then just keep quiet. Life is like a wheel, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. So, always, always and always be kind to others. Cyberbullying not only can lead to depression, but also may worsen depression, and that's not how you help those who are suffering from it. Give support and motivation, tell them that you are there if they need someone to talk to, and things like these that can help them. Not by mocking, neither by judging.

Be a kind warrior, not just a keyboard warrior. 



Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

1. Fill in the immigration form in the flight.

When we arrived, there was a really, really long line, queuing behind the immigration counters. We didn't write our flight number and 'address in Thailand' because we thought it wasn't important, but then at the counter itself, the customs officer asked us to fill everything, then we had to search back everything and write them down. Luckily, I saved all those details in my handphone. So, make sure you fill in EVERYTHING needed to save time. For 'address in Thailand', just write the address of the place you'll be staying. 

2. Don't book any package while on your way from the airport to hotel.

The van / taxi that you take will bring you to a company for packages and trip booking. DON'T BOOK ANY FROM THEM because you will get a wayyyy cheaper price from other places, especially if you stay at Ao Nang Beach. There will be a lot of packages and trips that you can find along the roadside near the beach, where you can even bargain to get the best price. 

3. Bring mineral water to Emerald Pool.

It's a long walk from the starting point of the Emerald Pool, so I suggest you to bring a mineral water especially if you have kids with you. But, worry not if you forget as there's a small shop near the pool when you have arrived to buy some drinks from. Or you can grab something to eat and drink first before entering the place. 

4. Bring / buy a leather / waterproof bag when riding the speedboat.

Example of waterproof bags

We went to Krabi during a not-so-good weather as the ride to Phi Phi Islands was rough and bumpy. Sobri brought a bag, where we put our phones and cameras in. The bag isn't waterproof, so he had to kinda hug the bag and I had to put my camera under my shawl to protect and make sure the splashing water won't enter the bag and damage the cameras. The water splash hit us the most as we sat at the rearmost seat of the boat. Dalam hati regret tak bawa bag kulit apa semua haha.

5. Dry storage in the speedboat 

But if you were too lazy and think it's a waste to buy other leather / waterproof bag, then just put your stuff in the dry storage under your seat. Usually all speedboats have this compartment.

6. Bring mosquito repellent for kayaking.

We didn't bring any and Alhamdulillah none bit us, well prolly because we have thick skin or already kinda 'immune' to mosquito bite haha. Nonetheless, I suggest you to bring especially those who'll wear shorts and short sleeves as you will be entering mangrove swamps if you take the 7km route like us. Not sure if there's any other route though, sorry!

7. Not enough money?

The good news is, there are CIMB banks in Krabi! I think there are 2 in Ao Nang, near the beach while the other one in Krabi Town, which is situated near the Night Market.  

8. A lot of halal food near the mosque area.

If you are a Muslim, don't worry as there's a lot of halal food available, especially if you stay near the Ao Nang Mosque. You can also get halal food from a few restaurants there. If you wanna try a power Thai tom yam, you can go to Kawan Restaurant. It's just a small restaurant, not sure you'll notice it or not. Their tom yam noodle was the best I've ever eaten as I really like spicy food, and I even asked for more spice haha. 
(Read this post to know more about food I had)

9. Keep samples!

Example. Cred to Mr. Google

I know this idea is a bit ridiculous, but I found it quite useful, at least for me haha. I rarely travel so I don't have a proper travel kit or specifically travel toiletry kit and it's not convenient for me to bring everything in their big sized bottles / containers as I bought the ticket without any check-in luggage, nor did my friends. Luckily, I have a few samples of shampoo, and also soap as the place where we stayed only provided us a solid soap, which obviously we had to share. About the soap, I don't mind sharing though, because both of them are my best friends. But the problem was, they didn't provide any shampoo. Our hair became really dry and somehow melekit at the end of the day, so to sleep without washing our hair was a no no. This is when the samples are useful haha.

On and here's an easy and incredible idea on how to pack your toiletries! Click here to watch the video.

10. Always bargain for a cheaper price

Always, always and always bargain when buying sometimes. Well, except for food. Guess what, I even tried to bargain for food, silly me haha I know right! Other than souvenirs, one most important thing that you should bargain for is the package trip to Emerald Pool, Phi Phi Islands Tour, etc. Ask for the cheapest price possible. Here are the prices that I got for each package, which you can make it as a reference if you want to.

11. Seasickness

Bring pills for seasickness if needed. It is an over-the-counter medicine that you can easily get from the pharmacy. 

12. Keep receipt for booked trip

For trip packages you book, make sure you keep the receipt because you have to show it to them when they fetch you from the hotel. 

13. Change money in Malaysia & bring Ringgit

Estimate your budget and change money in Malaysia, but do bring along some Ringgit just in case you're short of money later. It's advisable not to withdraw money there as you'll be charged around RM25 for every transaction.

14. Bring universal adapter (2pin)


You may also consider bringing power strips, especially if you stay 3-4 people per room, so that you can charge all your gadgets at the same time.

15. Waterproof case

Bring waterproof case for your phone if you wanna capture every single moment, including during snorkelling and island tour. Don't simply take for granted for little things like this. One of my friends had water entered his phone and caused irreversible damage to the phone. 

That's all for now. Hope this post helps!



Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

I've never known her in person, nor what she studied or where she lived. But one thing I know, she was a fighter. She passed away a few months ago due to SLE, but that doesn't indicate she lost to SLE. Let me tell you why. 

Some of you might wonder, what is SLE? 

SLE stands for systemic lupus erythematosus or in a simpler layman's term, it means body immune system attacks healthy tissue. And because it's a systemic disease (affects whole body, does not focus on any particular area), it might attack any parts of body including skin, muscles, blood, heart, lungs, stomach, kidney etc. All these manifestations attack at the same time in a serious condition. It seemed impossible for one to endure such pain, but that was what she did.

This book is compiled by her friends from the experiences they had with her; the ups and downs, the happiness and sadness. I really salute her friends who were always there for her, despite having to focus on their studies as well. The journey she had to go through was unbelievable and unbearable. I don't know whether I would be as strong as her if I were in her shoes. 

This book touched the soft spot in my heart and some of the stories, even made my eyes watery. The disease progressed slowly, attacking one by one. After she had recovered from one thing, she was attacked by another thing. Every time she fell, she stood up, telling herself, "I can do this". It happened over and over again. She fought every single day, in fact, every single second towards the end of her life. 

One more thing that I really looked up to is her connection with Allah SWT. She remained positive and patient most of the times. Yes, sometimes she did tell people and complained of her pain, but we are not in her shoes, so we don't know how much pain she had to bear. I admire her strength, not only physically, but also mentally and spiritually. 

She is indeed a bidadari.
Her name is Aishah Humairah. 

May Allah grant her Jannah. Al-Fatihah.

P/s: This book is given by a friend of mine, who studies in Jordan. It is really a good book. Even my mother and sister said so. They published 450 books as a trial for Jordan University Science & Technology (JUST) students, but had already sold out. They plan to come out with a second batch, but is still under consideration.