Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

It's 1.30 am. I was supposed to sleep 2 hours ago, but my eyes seem to refuse, though I had already drunk a cup of milk. Blame the culprit; what else other than the late night thoughts, which lead to over thinking? Haha. 

I started to realise that life is made of chunks and pieces, but it should be treated as a whole. Those pieces complement one another. Instead of like jigsaw puzzle, they are more like a sphere made up of irregular torn papers, stacking and overlapping on each other. One part affects the other part either directly or indirectly, especially to us, girls. You know how girls' minds can be really complicated sometimes. 

Maybe you guys are wondering, what am I talking about? What do I mean by treating life as a whole? It means.. well as for example, if you're studying and at one point your brain can't accept and absorb knowledge anymore. You try to recall what you have read, but your mind is totally blank and you can't remember anything. If you focus to solve only this problem (can't remember what you have read), you might continue reading and just ignore what you've forgotten or you might read back everything from the start. 

But if you treat it as a whole, you might be considering the food you consume, the sleep you had, your social interaction with others, etc. Maybe you eat too much nasi lemak and feel sleepy? Maybe you are too tired after sleepless nights and need some rest? Maybe you feel homesick because you haven't gone back to your hometown for weeks? These are some examples of other aspects that you might put into consideration when dealing with a problem like this. Problems do not necessarily result in negative consequences. Most of them make us human a human, imperfect, trying to become a better person. 

Another example, if you have problems in trying to leave bad habits, whether how small it is to you, to Allah it might be a serious one. The intention is there, so don't stop. Take a few steps backwards and look every single thing that is happening around you. Mend what's wrong, improve what's right. Check back your relationship with Allah SWT. How's your salah? What's your intention when doing a good deed? Etcetera. 

Hardships and difficulties are part of this worldly life. Never ever ever lose hope. They are made for us, human being to get closer to Allah SWT. Look at hardships positively. Return to Allah and ask for His help. InshaaAllah, you will get through this. Stay strong!

P/s: This post is dedicated to myself.



Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

There's a lot of things happening right now, but I'm going to update about my batch reunion first, which was held 2 weeks ago. Just to clarify for those who do not know. Eld is actually the short form for our batch (Seri Puteri 0711) name, Eldaterra. My friends, Dala, Ayef and a few more were the masterminds of this memorable event. The most exciting part was... *drum roll* I got the chance to meet my best friends, all at once! Except for Zahraa, who's in Jordan right now. But, she's gonna come back for good soooonnnn as she'll graduate a few months more. No reason not to meet after this hehe. 

The night before the reunion day, 5 of my best friends came to my (2nd) house in Vista Komanwel and stayed here for 2 nights! We had so much fun, just like the old times during high school when we gathered in the dorm and had a chit chat until one by one fell asleep. It was just about the same. The same us, the same person, the same character. One of the only differences was the topics we discussed haha. The 6 of us gathered around and told stories, from reminiscing our high school memory to updating our current life, study, etcetera. 

We planned to make kek batik and bring it as a potluck to the reunion. We were too lazy to do anything on Friday's night, and Faai was not feeling well. As the ingredients for the kek batik had been bought, we decided to make the kek batik on Saturday's morning. Sedapnya nyumnyum! We chilled it in the fridge for a few hours. Farah invited us to have lunch at her house before going to the reunion. We thought of going to Farah's house at 3pm, but at 12pm most of us were hungry. And guess what? We ate the kek batik............ So, no potluck to bring.

Hashtag too hungry not to eat the kek batik haha.

Sharp at 3pm we went to Farah's house, which is situated about 30 minutes from Vista.

Let the journey begin!

The four of us who sat at the back. Faai and Wafi had to focus on the road hehe.

There was a lot of food being served on the table, even got some brownies, which were specially made by Farah herself! Great food, with great companions. Not to forget, great house, great car, great everything as well haha. While waiting for Sara and Aini to arrive, we took the chance to take photos! Yeah, girls.

From left; Belon, Faai, Audi, Marni, Wafi and Me

Then we went to the reunion. We were a bit late because of the traffic jammed. As we entered the house, the aura changed. I felt an undeniable overwhelming awkward situation for a couple of minutes. But the bond was still there. It has always been there, never disappeared. I was really happy to see them, and though they are more beautiful nowadays (they really are!!!), but they are still the same people I knew! I'll let the photos tell everything. 

During Tahlil & Yassin.

After 5 years of not meeting each other, salam & peluk, muah kiri muah kanan.

My Sapphire friends! My 'house' mates, dorm mates, cheer mates, bed mates. 

Another group of my close friends. Third person from left, Diddy is going to get married soon!

I really love this photo. Aini was taking a photo of Sara and Farah. They looked so happy!

Meet the cute Saraaaa!

Meet Datin Aini guys. Just look at how vogue she is hehe

And not to forget, the innocent-looking Farah, who invited us for the scrumptious lunch! Hehe

Meet Tiaraaaa! From high school friend to university best friend hehe. 

So much love for these girls! (And a few more who were not in this photo).

Last but not least . . .

"We live to strengthen an already powerful bond." 

-Eldaterra, SSP 0711

For kek batik recipe, click HERE.

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Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

How was your Raya celebration guys? Hope everything went well! Mine? Alhamdulillah, 'twas fun! I've got to spend about a month at home. 2 weeks left before new semester starts, phew the time passes really fast whenever I'm at home and I don't think I'm the one who feels like this, am I right? Haha.

Anyway, this post is gonna be a throwback post about what happened the last few days, with a combination of writing, photos and videos from snapchat and 'boomerang' apps.

Before Raya, I went to Guardian to look around and have some fun trying the make up testers on the back of my hand. I ended up buying these 2 gorgeous stuff, which I never know how to use. I simply put them on my eyebrows and eyelids, blended here and there with multiple kind of shades and looked at the mirror to see the final result. Not that I used them without looking at the mirror, but it's different when you look one part of your face at a time and when you look it as a whole.

I looked at the mirror and saw my face.

It. Was. A. Disaster.

I immediately kept them in my 'makeup bag' after I posted a quick review of me using these in my snapchat haha.


As usual, the night before Raya, we gathered at our kampung (Ibu's side) and helped doing some chores; washing dishes, sweeping the floor, etc. On the first day of Raya, though I have some makeup palettes and a few (old) eyeliners, I wore nothing on my face. Just a lil powder and a touch of tinted lip balm on my lips so that my face wouldn't look pale and sick. Makeup and I still don't have the 'chemistry' and I didn't dare to try 'em on a perfect nice day and good weather. 


From left; Ica, Haniza, Me




We spent the second night of Raya at another kampung, this time was Ayah's side. Tella, my sister and I thought of going to either Tesco or Aeon Jusco to buy the trending Samyang Ramen to taste and at the same time do the famous 'Spicy Ramen Challenge, but unfortunately there were none left when we arrived there. 

"Samyang takde, nasib sambal ayam ada." 



That's about it I guess. And the photo below shows my 'outfit of the day' hashtag ootd which I wore on the first day of raya. Real candid, tengah betulkan tudung gitu hehe. 

Segan pula nak upload bebanyak kat sini. 
So, more photos can be seen in my Instagram (@dyllarezan)
My snapchat account username is dyllarezan as well :)



Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 

Today is the fifth day of Raya. Not sure if it's still considered as Raya or not. But Syawal is one month, so I consider it as a yes haha. So far, Raya has been good to me. I'm quite nervous for the upcoming new semester, marking the final semester we'll be in IMU Bukit Jalil before going to IMU clinical school in Seremban (if I pass, InshaaAllah!). But, let's spend time with family to the fullest first, shall we? After this, most of the time will be spent in hospital, so I don't think I can go back every weekend. *brb crying*

In a blink of an eye, day passes so fast, leaving yesterday as a memory. I ate so many ketupats and sambal bali (favourite dish cooked by nenek), and little did I realise how fast Raya Day 1 has become Day 5, phew. Nonetheless, I still can recall what happened on the first day of Raya. 

Luqman is my cute-little-youngest cousin who had just turned 4 yesterday. It started when we were waiting for nenek and others who went to the nearby mosque to perform Raya prayer. Makcu and I stayed with the kids at home. While sitting comfortably on nenek's sofa, watching takbir Raya on television, Makcu gave us duit Raya. "Yeay, second sampul of the day!" I screamed silently in my heart. Dah besar panjang still nak duit Raya, yelah tak kerja lagi lah katakan hehe. The kids, including Luqman, Hannah, Imran, etc. were in the second living room. Everyone seemed busy playing games and chit-chatting.

Makcu came out from her room at the back and called Luqman's name. 

No answer. 

No answer. 

"Muhammad Hami Luqmannnn."
No answer. 

Makcu asked my other cousins who were sitting in the second living room, but none of them knew where was Luqman. We became panicked. We checked for the doors, but nothing showed someone had gone out. Even Luqman's shoes were still at the usual place. We wondered and wandered. We literally called his name while searching for him at every corner of the house. Then suddenly one of his sisters came out of the prayer room and said, "Ni lah Luqman." 

Everyone rushed to the prayer room.

Luqman came out from his hiding place -- behind the door. But he still didn't wanna come out of the room. He wasn't trying to play hide and seek. The truth is, he sulked because he thought his mother, makcu, didn't wanna give him duit Raya haha how cuteeeee is that?! He stayed there for about 1 hour and didn't lift up his foot at all, even until my grandmother entered the room to persuade him haha. One whole day my nenek teased him, telling us that she had never found a kid who sulks because of duit Raya, haha Luqman is indeed a really cute cheeky boy!

Meet Luqman everyone!




Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 

Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorders, etc. are real. It's not a joke that you should make fun of. It might come to a point where suicidal thoughts linger in their minds, when they think life is no better than that. It is real, people. It is happening, right now, in some people.

I learned about depression and bipolar disorder last semester, though not really in detail like a psychiatrist nor a clinical student, but it is enough to let us know that they are real. It might be seen as ridiculous, but none of us know what these people have to go through. People look at these disorders lightly because they simply think "orang tu tak kuat iman" or "ikutkan sangat perasaan tu", and instantly label them as itu ini. Those who only give negative comments instead of the constructive ones should learn how to understand a situation before judging and condemning.

Cyberbullying makes it worse.

Yes, I agree that suicide is not the right way to solve a problem as it is a major sin, and we still have Allah to whom we shall ask for help and The Only One who can help us. Even in Al-Quran has stated..

فَإِذَا بَلَغْنَ أَجَلَهُنَّ فَأَمْسِكُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ أَوْ فَارِقُوهُنَّ بِمَعْرُوفٍ وَأَشْهِدُوا ذَوَيْ عَدْلٍ مِّنكُمْ وَأَقِيمُوا الشَّهَادَةَ لِلَّهِ ۚ ذَٰلِكُمْ يُوعَظُ بِهِ مَن كَانَ يُؤْمِنُ بِاللَّهِ وَالْيَوْمِ الْآخِرِ ۚ وَمَن يَتَّقِ اللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُ مَخْرَجًا

"... And whosoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way out for him to get out (of every difficulty)." Qur'an [65:2]

But, bashing and mocking are not the kind of advice you should give to her/him either. It's really saddening to see how people treat certain people. And this issue is quite related to what I had written previously, 'That Girl Is So Ugly!' because I bet if she were in your category of the 'Perfect Girl', she might be treated much nicely. 

If you notice, this cepat-melatah kind of society and mentality nowadays is really, really fast at spreading stuff like this. Cakap sepatah salah or upload salah angle sikit (which makes the photo being looked from a different point of view), haa less than 5 minutes more than 200 people already know. 

Before teasing someone who is known to have any kind of disorder or health issue, make yourself acknowledge on how serious are depression, bipolar disorder, etc. can be. Calling someone as attention seeker, drama queen or even worse, whore, is a pathetic attitude. Why be rude when you can be good? 

Anyway, I'm not backing up anyone because I don't know the truth, and I'm not here to tell you who's right and who's wrong, neither do I try to point anyone as the subject of argument. It's a broad issue, not being specific to any individual. This cyberbullying issue happens worldwide. Too much negativity on social media nowadays. It becomes a medium for torturing a person's mind and 'who-get-the-most-like-win' competition. We can't just make them shut, so what's left for us to do is to leave the social media. 

And for those who only know how to find others' faults and mistakes, stop doing that. If you have nothing good to say, then just keep quiet. Life is like a wheel, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. So, always, always and always be kind to others. Cyberbullying not only can lead to depression, but also may worsen depression, and that's not how you help those who are suffering from it. Give support and motivation, tell them that you are there if they need someone to talk to, and things like these that can help them. Not by mocking, neither by judging.

Be a kind warrior, not just a keyboard warrior.