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Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  This 'Heathens' song keeps playing in my mind. Blame the radio station that plays it every day. See, people tend to blame others instead of admitting their mistakes haha yes, I'm talking about myself. I'm currently having a posting in obstetrics and gynaecology (O&G), yup women stuff, from pregnancy to menstruation to ovary and uterus. This brings me back to the 2015, when I had my second hospital attachment a.k.a elective posting.  The first one I had when I was studying A-Level. The second one, I chose to do the 3-week-elective posting in O&G department with Tiara. Although it was kinda difficult that time as I hadn't studied about the reproductive system, nor did I have any idea of how the delivery was gonna look like. And I didn't even know what to expect and about the special components needed to clerk an obstetrics or gynaecology case, but it was such a great experience and overview. You can ju...

This post is supposed to be posted on 15th September 2016. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  Creds to Mr. Google I'm not going to write about how long I haven't written anything and how busy I am, uh-oh, I just did it haha. I have a lot of things to share throughout the one month I was 'Missing In Action', but I don't know where to start and where to put the full stop. Anyway, currently I'm having a 4-week-hospital posting in Batu Pahat, Johor. I had my Paediatrics rotation last week and just ended the medical ward rotation this afternoon. This morning we had a session with Sister N. She asked us to enter "Klinik Pakar 1" 3-4 people at a time. Sanaa, Aina, Marsaid and I were in the last sub group to enter the clinic. Sister N. straightly brought us to the blood withdrawal counter. It's show time. All this while we only did the venepuncture procedure on a mannequin, so finally we had a chance to do it on a real patient. Mar...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. It's 1.30 am. I was supposed to sleep 2 hours ago, but my eyes seem to refuse, though I had already drunk a cup of milk. Blame the culprit; what else other than the late night thoughts, which lead to over thinking? Haha. I started to realise that life is made of chunks and pieces, but it should be treated as a whole. Those pieces complement one another. Instead of like jigsaw puzzle, they are more like a sphere made up of irregular torn papers, stacking and overlapping on each other. One part affects the other part either directly or indirectly, especially to us, girls. You know how girls' minds can be really complicated sometimes.  Maybe you guys are wondering, what am I talking about? What do I mean by treating life as a whole? It means.. well as for example, if you're studying and at one point your brain can't accept and absorb knowledge anymore. You try to recall what you have read, but your mind is totally b...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. There's a lot of things happening right now, but I'm going to update about my batch reunion first, which was held 2 weeks ago. Just to clarify for those who do not know. Eld is actually the short form for our batch (Seri Puteri 0711) name, Eldaterra. My friends, Dala, Ayef and a few more were the masterminds of this memorable event. The most exciting part was... *drum roll* I got the chance to meet my best friends, all at once! Except for Zahraa, who's in Jordan right now. But, she's gonna come back for good soooonnnn as she'll graduate a few months more. No reason not to meet after this hehe.  The night before the reunion day, 5 of my best friends came to my (2nd) house in Vista Komanwel and stayed here for 2 nights! We had so much fun, just like the old times during high school when we gathered in the dorm and had a chit chat until one by one fell asleep. It was just about the same. The same us, the same person, t...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. How was your Raya celebration guys? Hope everything went well! Mine? Alhamdulillah, 'twas fun! I've got to spend about a month at home. 2 weeks left before new semester starts, phew the time passes really fast whenever I'm at home and I don't think I'm the one who feels like this, am I right? Haha. Anyway, this post is gonna be a throwback post about what happened the last few days, with a combination of writing, photos and videos from snapchat and 'boomerang' apps. Before Raya, I went to Guardian to look around and have some fun trying the make up testers on the back of my hand. I ended up buying these 2 gorgeous stuff, which I never know how to use. I simply put them on my eyebrows and eyelids, blended here and there with multiple kind of shades and looked at the mirror to see the final result. Not that I used them without looking at the mirror, but it's different when you look one part of your face at...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  Meet Luqman everyone! Today is the fifth day of Raya. Not sure if it's still considered as Raya or not. But Syawal is one month, so I consider it as a yes haha. So far, Raya has been good to me. I'm quite nervous for the upcoming new semester, marking the final semester we'll be in IMU Bukit Jalil before going to IMU clinical school in Seremban (if I pass, InshaaAllah!). But, let's spend time with family to the fullest first, shall we? After this, most of the time will be spent in hospital, so I don't think I can go back every weekend. *brb crying* In a blink of an eye, day passes so fast, leaving yesterday as a memory. I ate so many ketupats and sambal bali (favourite dish cooked by nenek), and little did I realise how fast Raya Day 1 has become Day 5, phew. Nonetheless, I still can recall what happened on the first day of Raya.  Luqman is my cute-little-youngest cousin who had just turned 4 yesterday. ...

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  Depression, anxiety, bipolar disorders, etc. are real. It's not a joke that you should make fun of. It might come to a point where suicidal thoughts linger in their minds, when they think life is no better than that. It is real, people. It is happening, right now, in some people. I learned about depression and bipolar disorder last semester, though not really in detail like a psychiatrist nor a clinical student, but it is enough to let us know that they are real. It might be seen as ridiculous, but none of us know what these people have to go through. People look at these disorders lightly because they simply think "orang tu tak kuat iman" or "ikutkan sangat perasaan tu",  and instantly label them as itu ini. Those who only give negative comments instead of the constructive ones should learn how to understand a situation before judging and condemning. Cyberbullying makes it worse. Yes, I agree that suic...